Today 9th of November 2012, 5:00 am in the morning. Few hours ago, it had all ended. One and half year of effort, 18 months of dream, or should I say delusion has ended. Surprisingly, though, I do not specifically feel agony, but calmness and acceptance. I won't say I have lost, but it is true that I defeated once again to life itself. I might have been cowardish to take steps or was not sharp enough to think through whole situation. However, even though I got bluntly refused, I am not sad nor regretting.
Perhaps, I have been through this moment before, and heart itself preventing my mind to dive down into the bottom of the bottomless sea of misery. She was a beauty, unarguably, but we were not meant for each other, I guess. I won't regret what I have done, although, it is plain a loss, I see it as a triumphant acceptance of a gentleman. The experience may lighten my path and open my eyes. I love you but I don't need you, I, hope, you will live happy as now in future. Goodbye, best of luck.
No comments:
Post a Comment