i feel like wanna write, complain, and fight. today is naadam day. it feels horrible when you are abroad and all the media you go online are about festivity of home country. i feel left behind all these, however, i make myself feel better that i m not only one whos feeling that way.

i need somebody to talk and understand or at least has a sympathy to understand me. but thats okay, i wont be alone all the time. feelings are to last only that moment not eternal yet people want some of them to last forever. today i might be struggling young man who has a very abitious, astronomically large dream for a mid class family oriented individual but when the time comes i will achieve my dream and start another new even harder life, till then i must fight for it. i know what you are thinking, what the hell? isnt it supposed to be easier than that moment? but some people, for example, me, are born to help and give. i am not afraid of that kind of life. i am happier that way.

this parapgraph is for someone whom i thought  would be my soulmate. you are rainbow. absolutely gorgious and stunningly beautiful. it brings me only sadness and grief that we had to apart in the end. however, dont be sad, dear. in another life, we might end up together. that time, never let me go nor i let you. i wish we could share more time and memories.